XIAOROU <33 YAWEI ,

here

2007-12-11T16:52:00.000+08:00

i am back

2007-10-28T18:46:00.000+08:00

I miss this blog terribly. Because it's so pretty.
I heart it so much. This is, true LOVE.

xiaxue

2007-09-05T15:19:00.001+08:00

Where is Xiaxue?
I'm going to die of depression if she's not gonna blog.

love

2007-09-04T12:38:00.001+08:00

If love is going to be so hard,
and hating will be alot easier.
I'll gladly do it.
Because it's so tough now.
I feel uber suffocated and upset.
I'm so affected.
Only to realised that, I might be the only who got affected in the entire world.

But to my horror, I found out that hating you is impossible.
Why would I end up like this?
After the last incident.
I told myself not to take anyone seriously.
And then I fell again.
When you called for time out, I was devastated.
I almost broke down.
Tears streamed down.
My sisters were mortified.
They just stood rooted to the ground.
They were as helpless as I was.
Because god-knows-when they last saw me cry.
I have to recover.

phone

2007-09-03T23:14:00.001+08:00

I was on the phone with a total stranger who can't even remember his big name.
It was so wahahaha-ly hilarious.
But he refused to talk!
I didn't manage to charm him. ):
That was so so so sad.
Because I thought I had a sexy voice.
So maybe I look terrible but the voice was so deep and sexy!
WAHAHAH. Ok. I am joking.
But I think that I have a sexy voice when I talk o the phone.

I miss precious.

emma roberts

2007-09-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

I have a new love.
Emma Roberts.
She's NINE days older than me.

maybe

2007-09-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

Love too much.
Love too much.

gone

2007-08-12T19:30:00.000+08:00

Blog will be on hiatus, long one actually.
Writer is however, still on the move.

escapade

Click on it if you're still keen to follow my life-less life.
If not, you can get lost now because I'm not exactly in the mood to entertain who wants to lecture or insult me.

]:

2007-08-12T06:17:00.000+08:00

I've decided that I probably need a change.
A new headstart, that marks a new journey.
A new headstart, that ends my old story.

lost and confused

2007-08-12T01:07:00.000+08:00

I saw them staring, because I laughed out loud at Mike He and Rainie Yang.
I was just trying to laugh, after crying though.

Utter failure, I mean I can't control myself and everything.
I didn't want to make you confused.
But whatever he's doing just made me feel that my only friend is being snatched away, so are the precious memories and common little secrets.
I didn't like that.
I know it's not your fault, just couldn't help to get mad. ]:
Won't happen again, I will control.
I will close my eyes and cover my ears.
Love you loads.

I have to wake up in another 4 hours.
Can't sleep, not going to sleep.
Sweet man has tranformed into sweet boy.
I wish he'll come early, at least rescue me from the awkwardness.
But I'm having a second thought about going or not.
I need a run, so clear the thoughts off my head.
I need directions.

]:

2007-08-11T21:55:00.000+08:00

I aplogise for the bad attitude or whatever you imply that as.
I have no idea why I got so worked up.
Generally, at myself not you.
I should stop doing it.
But I can't...

Because I don't get what he's trying to do.

I love ~~special~~love.
I miss hanging out with ~~special~~love.

Sweet man's at bbq.
I'm rotting.
And doing maths. [:

]:

2007-08-11T15:42:00.000+08:00

I miss love.
She didn't reply to all my sms-es.
Worrying a little. ]:

&I hate people who can't spell my name.
Like, vannessa, vanesa, vannesa. WHATEVER.
If you can't spell, ask. For god's sake.

I'm sad now. ]:
Because I have one spiteful pimple splatting right on my face.
Md laughed at me. * grrr *
I need to persuade it to get off my face before tomorrow.

* EDITED
Cute man decided that he likes Sweet man more[:

loser

2007-08-11T13:08:00.000+08:00

I am loser who already posted 3 entries by Ipm.
Shit me.
But I was really bored. ]:

Special is kinda in love.
Jiahui is in love.
Jingda is in love.
My sisters are in love.
Mummy is addicted to games.
I am stranded, especially after special vanished without bidding goodbye. ]:
Yes, stranded is how I feel nowadays..
But I've straighten my thoughts.
Haaa! At least I think I have.
But I still love you.

* grrr *
I don't like him at all lar.
]:
hates hates hates hates.
So much of a kid's behaviour, I mean me. * rolls eyes *
Giving my all, losing my all.

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Ok. I sprained my hand, while doing handstand.
DAMN.
But I love my flat tummy.
Flat, because it's empty.
I scratched it while I was showering just now.
And it leaves a red trial.
And I got so amused, so I kept scratching.
So I look like a Red and White zebra crossing.
For your information, my tummy is white.
Nobody believed. WTH!
I'm getting closer to 40kg. Wheeee~

Even my sister know the meaning of MIA.
I'm a loser. ]:
I'm quite embarrassed to continue blogging about my life-less life.
]:
I'm bothered by gazillion of what ifs.
The what ifs that nobody will help me to solve.
The what ifs that nobody will bother to ask.
The what ifs...

[:

2007-08-11T10:58:00.000+08:00

It's gonna last for a while, the withdrawal syndrome.
Just pardon me and my pessimism, I'm sure it'll leave me alone after a while.

I'd fancy to have some HONEY STARS [:

I just scalded my lips when I tried to drink the red tea.
See, that's why I hate eating.
It's so arghs!

Blogger is so efficient.
It has already reviewed my other blog which I think some morons reported it as a spam blog.
Wth?!
But it's ok now, and I've deleted it.
Let it be gone, with the wind.
Should not fill my tiny heart with so much anger.
Muahahah. Oh well, not exactly tiny lar!

Probably starting a new blog.
Which I have already created because I'm afraid that people will snatch my URL away.
Haaa! KS hor?
Still thinking, because I'm not ready to let this 600 plus entries go, yet.

guiness world record

2007-08-11T09:42:00.000+08:00

Hey! I survived 48 hours without food, and much sleep.
I'm so going to apply for guiness world record.

But I'm going to eat something today.
Not that I'm hungry.
噓...這是個不能說的祕密!
Hahaha!
Had quite a long chat with Coach, who's going to treat me breakfast.
Muahahha!
And Mr Cute man! (:
It was rare, for me to initiate a chat and last for 2 hours.
Because everybody decided to ignore me together again.
So I chatted with these two nice souls until my mum dashing into my room and started yelling about how abnormal my life is.
Hello? It was just 2plus am...
Anyway, didn't sleep till around 4.
Reflecting, thinking and sms-ing.
Still fell asleep and pigged off before I managed to reply to Mr Cute man!.

I'll be recording the early waking-up time for Mr Cute man!.
He's so nice and thoughtful.
Smittened, by his glib tongue.
Haa, no. Not exactly.
Not those non-existent juniors.
I will be immuned however.
Mr Cute man! said he'll be sad that I'm immuned.
But he doesn't know the existence of my blog, so it's alright to write here.
Oh yes! I have to tell him the truth.
That it may be boring.
But appreciate lots, because he's going to share the awkwardness with me.
And, he'll be one who will end up to be more awkward than I'll be feeling.
Hopefully, he can handle it. ]:

Today's homework day, so I can hang out tomorrow. [:
I'm quite happy now.
Not eating is too hurting.
I can hear my tummy growl, but I didn't eat a single shit.
Because I didn't feel like eating at all.

Can someone tell me the meaning of MIA?
* grrr *
I just read it on a book and some people said MIA and refused to explain to me.
* Rolls eyes *

man sucks

2007-08-10T20:41:00.000+08:00

But I hate crying. ):

I am still disgusted.
I still want to disappear.
I feel like dying, now.

If I still don't slim down, I have nothing more to say.
I haven eaten a single shit since last night.
Considering the amount of food I've eaten for the past few days.
I might have died from malnutrition or gastric pain.
But I survived.
I rock.

Hi.
If you're nice and is really nice.
You can be my friend [:
Most important thing is that you're not a rapist.
And you must not be hideous looking.
And you must have all the time in the world.
Because I may call you out anytime.
You must love me.
I am serious.

family love

2007-08-10T13:47:00.000+08:00

I'm not raised in a family where 'I love you' is given out like tips.
In fact, it's scarce.
After whatever had happened yesterday, I am seriously traumatised.
It has a large and tremendous impact on me and life.
And again, I didn't tell anyone.
Because all I will get is, I told you so.
I truly don't need that.

It was scary, close and undesirable.
Mainly, insulting.
I should have been more apprehensive, and wary.
I cried, loud enough in the bathroom and in the bedroom.
Apparently, they'd heard me.
My sister didn't probe.
Neither did my mum.
I didn't want to wake up.
Forcefully slept till the noon, annoyed by the brats next door.

I finally woke up by my sister's sms, and disheartened at the sight of the empty house.
She said, don't cry alone because she'll always be there.
I tried to fight back the tears which had already filled my eyes.
I didn't reply to her sweet sms.
Because I didn't know how.
I'm not exactly exposed to pda.
I didn't know how to love, and be loved.
Fact is that, we all know we care for each other.
But seldom do we express through actions and words.
We just care.

I'm so left alone.
I'm scared, I dare not step out of my house.
But god knows how much I want to be out of this empty house.
Is it my home, or is it just a house?

I want to share with you.
But you're no longer there.
Loves.
I have to stop, because I'm selfish.
I might hinder.
Don't want that to happen.
Because I love you lots.

from now

2007-08-10T01:11:00.001+08:00

I don't know what the hell I'm doing.
I'm just scared.
But nobody understands.
Can someone just pay attention to me?
I just wanna talk.
Just listen, sometimes voice constructive suggestions.
Lend me your shoulders when I cry.
Laugh with me when I laugh.
Pm me when you're online.
Sms me when you're not.
Call me when you're bored.
Laugh at me when I slip and fall.
Take silly photographs no matter where we are.
Lunch together every single day.
Encourage me when I'm down.
Never will ignore me no matter what happens.
Bitch about common enemy.
Gossip about hunky guys.

But I can't do it now.
I feel, a little lost.
I need friends.
I feel unloved.

I want to disappear, and vanish.
Because I'm in the way, obstructing many things to bloom.
I'm selfish.
Bye.

I hate rapists.
Bye.

hate men

2007-08-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

Hate men.
I feel insulted, and all he got was a eye-rolling and a fucking middle finger from me.
He almost made me cry.

Hate blogger.
It says my other blog has violated the terms of blogger.

secrets

2007-08-09T13:48:00.000+08:00

Secrets is sweet.
So sweet.
桂綸美好有气質..

Ed is so nice to accompany me.
Loves.

Bought the slippers.
Joy

" Return lies within the hasty keys... "

simple or complicated

2007-08-09T08:47:00.000+08:00

I should not assume.
Things weren't as simple as I'd thought it would be.
Neither have I worsen the situation.
It's just that it wasn't a simple issue form the start.
Oh god.

I thought it's going to be alright.
But once again, it's still missing.

Happy birthday, Jiemei!
Love ed.

friends

2007-08-08T20:32:00.000+08:00

*BOMB*
BURST
DIE
BYE
GRRRRR

Hate it.
Deprived of friends.
Love ed.

joy joy joy

2007-08-08T17:25:00.000+08:00

My mummy is not mean.
Love her.
She said I can buy the havaianas slippers!
She said she'll pay 10 bucks.
She said I can ask 10 bucks from daddy and then I pay 15 bucks.
Wheeeeeee~~~

I WANNA WATCH SECRETS!!
Who is nice enough to watch with me? ]:
Don't have to treat me tho! Haaaaa

[:

2007-08-08T16:16:00.000+08:00

Brendak treated pizza. Rarrrs
Bloated. Had 2 slices of hawaiian and i'm truly bloated.
Although i was the one who ordered the cheezy fiesta.
It is always good to control diet.
If not I'll become like 45 again, which is gross.
I don't want that to happen ever again.
Enjoyed pouring half a bottle of cheese powder on the pizza and exclaim
" WHOA! XIA XUE LEH! "
Awww. So fun! [:

Had fun, it has been a long time since we last sit together and eat and talk.
Rare opportunity.

Walked around and went to Check.
I told Brendak I want to go Check.
She gave me that confused and puzzled face and finally asked,
Check what?
Haaa! Check! The shop.
I saw the Havaianas slippers I wanted to buy.
Left ONE size only and I can't remember my size!
I didn't want to try because I was wearing shoes.
It's only 35.90!
Regrets, because that was MY size!
Regret even more because I asked my mum if I should buy, she threatened to cut my pocket money.
Grrrrrrr.
I will still be buying. I DON'T CARE.
I wanna go back NOW, to buy. ]:
Oh yes, I saw something that I will probably be buying for special.
Ouch, so expensive.

Annual Awards was so long!
I mean, the duration.
Whole class stood up and cheered for Papa Quek while he was on stage.
That is so, united.
Although we're sponges, but we're capable of surprises.
Saw Miss Loo! Wheee~ So happy to see her again.

National Day's celebration was so high!
Some soccer player came to our school.
He is quite cute.
Haaaa!
Oh well, paste tattoos and drew on my arm,
SO SO FUN!

Love national day!!
Lots of holidays and fun. [:

bad fren

2007-08-07T19:14:00.000+08:00

Just passed Brendak her overdue birthday present.
I am such a lousy person. ]:
Actually gave her a belated present.
Arghs!
But she was really happy.
So glad.
The comics are super expensive!!!!!
The first set of comics I've bought, for Brendak instead. [:
But when she got it, she wasn't just smiling and didn't bother to even look at them like some other presents she'd gotten.
She unwrapped them so excitedly, behaving like a 3 year-old kid receiving a christmas present.
And then grinning from ear to ear.
So touched.
Everything is worth it already.
Special paid too, for her best friend, she said.
Loves.

Was talking with special.
And she asked will I forget about the tie day.
I said no.
Because QQ will sms me.
And then I realised how much I've taken that for granted.
Thanks QQ.
He was so sweet, to sms me every monday night to remind me.
And say things like his life will be boring without me.
However things he said will be more sweet if he can remove something very redundant like,
Because if you're not there, cannot suan you short.
-.-
But yes, didn't know him very well though.
Appreciates. [:

I'm so sorry to let you wait for like 1 hour plus.
God.
And just return you your thing and left.
So sorry.
About the book and poster.
Thank you so so much.

My knee is aching.
Don't die during trials.
If not it'll be like 101% gonecase.

Just let it remain this way.
I need to get used, that's all.
I was just scared.
So scared that I couldn't sleep at night.
And then, depressed.

[:

2007-08-07T03:22:00.000+08:00

HELLO!!!
Its 3.23am and I'm having a sleepless night.
I was sleeping, but yeah, woken up by the cruel reality.
And then can't sleep again.
OK. So boring(me!).
I'm going out. Out. Out.
Like now now now. 3.24am.
Arr. Like who cares? Since everyone's sleeping.
They wont even realise I'm gone gone gone.
But I don't know where to go.
Haaaa. So pathetic.
I'll sit at the bus stop.
And then and then and then.
If I got raped or kidnapped,
everyone can rejoice.
But unfortunately...
I'm too poor to be kidnapped.
Kidnappers have to feed me somemore.
Not worth it.
Arrrr. RAPE. They can't see me in the dark and not sexually attractive.
Ok. Don't argue that rapists don't choose the looks, they just want girls.
Seriously I don't care because nobody cares about that.
Rapists have their own choices too.
If they can, they will want to rape a pretty one.
Blarhs. Whatever.
OK. Leaving..
Toodles

In search of my endorphines.

weak

2007-08-06T21:22:00.000+08:00

I'm such a weakling.
I still cried in the end, despite the fact that I've told myself umpteen times that I'm not going to let a drop of tears fall.
But, I still cried myself to sleep.
I'm nothing, but an useless irritating weakling.

fook

2007-08-06T20:35:00.001+08:00

F YOU. ( ME! )
IT'S ALL YOUR ( MINE! ) BLOODY FAULT.
BLAME NO ONE, YOU ( ME! ) STUPID FAGGOT.
BECAUSE YOU ( ME! ) ARE A SUCKER YOURSELF ( MYSELF! )!

UHH! NOW YOU ( ME! ) CAN TALK TO YOURSELF ( MYSELF! ).
BECAUSE NOBODY WILL TALK TO YOU ( ME! ).

happy birthday

2007-08-06T15:26:00.000+08:00

After that, i leaned back against my chair.
I didn't feel worse, I didn't feel better, either.
The strange feeling is so so stuck on my chest.
I can't get it off.
It's the confession that I've yet to make.
It's the heart, any moment it's gonna break.

Happy birthday to Brendak.
I'm such a bad friend.
Should really bang the wall and kill myself.
Oh well. Brendak praised me. It's something she rarely does.
So honoured.

coward

2007-08-05T12:10:00.000+08:00

Was talking to Shaun last night when the entire world decided that I might be busy so all refused to talk to me.
He started the conversation casually by saying that his display picture is really cute.
And yes, it was really cute.
And then conversation got so bland and he said something like.
Are you slashing your wrist in your picture because it got cut off and it looks like you're slitting your wrist.
And then, followed by Hahaha! Don't take me too seriously.
I was not slitting my wrist.
Too much of a coward to do any of these silly things.
Something like committing suicide.
Big nono. They end the pain yes, albeit they are painful themselves.
Contradicts.
Oh well.
It's just that, I dare not slit my wrist.
Because I'm afraid that I see blood spurting out.
I don't quite like the scene, it is gross.
I dare not jump down the building.
Because I'm afraid that I might regret halfway through.
And when I die, it'll be super ugly.
I don't want that.
Shaun says he has a classmate who slits himself and is sent for counselling.
I responded by saying I have tons of friends who did that.
He said he's not exactly exposed to that.
Aha! That's the difference between female and male.
Tsk.
I'm higly exposed to those slashing of wrists and killing oneself
I don't know. They don't seek help, instead adapted the idea of ' pain transfer '.
Unfortunately, stupid. They're thinking that it's piercing or what?
I don't know. I don't know what's ahead so I don't wanna die yet.
Haaa. It maybe beautiful for all I know.

After that, the conversation got really monsyllabus with only Haha and Yar.
So I decided to leave the conversation and leaving Mr. Nice laughing to himself.
And then I went to sleep, after I sent a few sms-es which I never got the reply.
Sweet dreams. I dreamt of Navy boy.
It's not any wet dream or whatsoever.
Like I can have a wetdream...
But.
It's so sweet.
Thing is, I cannot remember Navy boy's face vividly.
So I have no idea who's that in my dream.
It was so sweet.
I almost cried in my dream.
Felt cared for, loved.
I swear if I ever cried in that dream, the tears will have a sweet taste.
I don't know Navy boy in person.
Thus I can like him all I want for now.
Because I know that if I get to know him in person, I will like him no more.
It's just, admiration and adoring.
It's so different when you know a person and accommodate his shortcomings from now, when you just look at him from afar and sit next to him on the bus when you can peek at him.
I think he caught me staring a few times.
In fact, I've only seen him a few times.
Aha! That makes me staring all the time I see him.
Haaa. Not a desperate.
He is uber cute.
Not your kinda cute. But the kinda cute that will make me melt.
He's totally the kind I can go tanning in bikini with.
It was in my dream... Haaa!
OK. Think too much.
But, it's really great to have a sweet dream, after a tormentous day when I felt so petrified and lonely and horrible.
Yet no one came to my rescue.
I was left all alone. staring at those ants crawling across my room.
I bet they feel as lost as I'd felt.
Based on swarm theory? Arrrr. Never mind about that.
And the nest of these little creatures was never found.
I was brooding over this incident for quite a while.
Because they really irritate me.
I can no longer bring sweets into my room, oh well, only sugar-free is allowed.
You know, those sweets with logo that has a tooth under an umbrella.
Yes, sugar free.
I'm thinking if I should go for retail therapy alone?
Since I'm alone at home anyway.
The silence is driving me crazy.
Uh yes, even though I switched on the television when I'm in the room with lappie.
Not to mention, the computer outside is playing Mayday and Cheer's song, si ben dao yue qiu
I still feel, lonely, quiet and probably empty.
It's been a long while since I last felt this.
Sigh, love.
Or maybe, money.
Not high enough to love everyone now.
So,
Yours truly.

By the way, this is the wrist slitting photograph.

karma

2007-08-05T11:20:00.000+08:00

Uh yes.
Don't bother.
Died.
Of.
Boredom.

See.
Me.
No.
More.
I.
Am
At.
My.
Beautiful.
Holistic.
White.
Escapade.
With.
Angels.
Singing.
Cupids.
Running.
About.
Where.
Loneliness.
And.
Unhappiness.
Do.
Not.
Exist.
The.
Heaven.
The.
Paradise.

for gods sake

2007-08-05T10:19:00.000+08:00

I keep having this illusion.
No, it's not Deja Vu.
I can't put it across in words.

It's weird and freaking hell outta me.

pms byeee

2007-08-05T08:47:00.000+08:00

MUAHAHHA.
PMS SAID GOODBYE TO ME THIS MORNING.

Back aching. ok.
I don't really know if it's my backache or I'm too hungry.
Wahahahaha.
Too sad to eat anything yesterdayyyyy.

*Navy Boy!

rejections

2007-08-04T23:06:00.000+08:00

I fear rejections.
It isn't hate, it's fear.
A phobia.
Why can't people get it.

Tell me when you hate me.
Tell me when you don't feel like talking to me anymore.
I'll do something about it.

moood swing

2007-08-04T13:22:00.000+08:00

Fuck the moodswing.
It keeps making me cry.

lovesss

2007-08-01T21:34:00.000+08:00

We passed by a bus stop while we're on a bus and came across Stefanie Sun's advertisement.

Me:吃飯了嗎？

Special:還沒咧...

Me:今天吃幾餐了？

Special:嗯................九餐...

Me:哇！還有一餐就到你一天的quota了

Special:呃...減肥 -.-lllllll

Special is so sweet today!
She accompanied me to the optical shop and prescribed my spectacles.
And then walked to my house to collect those rotten contact lens that the people gave me at optic*l 8*.
Then returned to the shop again!
Somethings happened, so we made our way to Lot One like immediately.
I'm totally disgusted by the attitude of the opticians there.
They're so unfriendly and not professional.
They kinda cheated me, giving me trial pairs and samples.
So grosssssss. Worse thing is that those contact lens gave me eye irritation.
I don't get why they can do that and yet give so many reasons to make them sound reasonable and fair to give me those bloody free contact lenses in anyway.
I paid for them. HELLO?

My new spectacles are so normal.
Just spectacles.
It's red [:
Special says I'm stupid.
Because she was trying to bargain.
So she pretended that she didn't know the price.
And I STUPIDLY said the price.
LOL.
But eventually the super nice uncle gave us discount.
Haaaa!!
I AM STUPID! LIKE TOTALLY!!!
Special got so good at it.
She even got a bottle of FREE solution for me.
Thanks man.
Helped me save moneyyyyy.

Special had so much fun trying on spectacles.
Rarrr. I want coloured contact lens.

Special finally met my little sister!
Both of them wanted to meet each other so much.
Special even rehearsed what to say.
And then all they said was BYE.
LOL.
So cuteeeeeee.

Special is terrified when she saw the fat lizard at the bus stop.
She almost dragged me down to the road. LOL

Anyway, point is. Special is so nice to accompany me the entire day and then finally fly back to Chinatown.
Love youuuu man!

We had fire drill today!!
It's so fun!!!!!!!
Oh my god! Can we have fire drill everyday? (((((((((:

You almost made me laugh out loud during lessons when I received the sms.
LOL.
Be careful when you walk....
I bet they were trying so hard not to laugh!
Stop falling asleep in schooool!
LOVES

[:

2007-07-31T18:36:00.000+08:00

AUDITION IS SO FUN.
Haaaa!
I so want my own psp. ]:

Anyway, Bel and I did something atrocious.
We shouldn't be doing that at all.
It's ILLEGAL.
Haaaa!

It's a secret between us, and it shall always be. [:

Look at this!

I've been abused, severely.
Muahahahha!!
Mummy saw it and was shocked.
She kept asking me what happened.
I said I knocked myself against the window pane.
I know that she doubted what I said but she didn't probe further.
I was rather thankful for that otherwise I won't know how to tell her. Haaa!
And specialllll. You don't have to feel sorry at all.
It's just part of the 'fun' we had. [:

Got the new bottle. Joy.

photos

2007-07-30T19:29:00.001+08:00

REJOICE.
I've scored the highest for chem pract.
GREAT sense of satisfaction.
But I am still unsure about those colours in the test tubes.

Special bit me again.
It is swollen and I'm gonna have blue black.
And finally she realised how painful is it to be bitten on the knuckles.
God.

Loves
**************************

These are pictures of the PLAY Fun Party Concert. The lightings are simply gorgeous.
The concert was fascinating. Awesome! Thanks for queueing, even though you don't like them. [:

They are loves.

**********************

And these are some camwhoring.
You can choose to scroll down very very very quickly so you don't see them at all.

She bit me so so hard!

I taught her the art of taking photographs.

Ask me where I'm looking. ASK ME!!

[:

LOVES.
***********************

I was late for school today.
Blame damn 77.
I took 174 instead and walked in the long way within 4 mins.
Wee wee and I were still late.
And this bloody prefect.
Made me puke blood.
He was so so so snobbish.
Couldn't stand it.
He was like, LIBRARY CARD NOT ACCEPTED.
Saying till as if I'm using NETS to buy things from a mamashop.
Grrrrr!!!
Please be reasonable, we'd already told you the reason why we couldn't give you our bloody ics!
I mean the prefect next to you, who's apparently the one who's nicer and friendlier, already said she could help to ask for permission.
But you were the one who's so rigid and refused to be flexible.
Tsk. HOM sleeping ar??
So I initially wanted to give my wallet to them.
I asked if I can give an empty wallet.
AND HE GAVE ME THIS BLOODY REPLY.
' IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE EMPTY '
Hey! I'm a first-timer after all.
Ain't like you, so experienced huh huh huh.
You're plainly, D I S G U S T I N G.
And he was so mean, not letting some boy sit on the bench.
Does he have any idea how far we walked?
He treated us like, CRIMINALS.
Oh come on, it's just LATE-COMING.
Penalty is DETENTION, not JAIL??

Even when principal said that everyone who's late will be excused.
Because metamorphosis was GREAT.
He refused to return me my wallet because he claimed that I was not with them.
HELLO?!
I reached earlier than them because I chose to take 174 instead of 77?
Can you use your brand new brain?
GOD.
I so bloody argued with him.
He tried to argue back, like OMFG?
He didn't know how many of his seniors dislike him.
Because he's simply too gross and freaking thought that he's the authority, he's the GOD.
OMT. Obviously he's not. Even if he is, who's there to worship him man?
I'm definitely not doubting his leadership quality, if he has any.
But I dare to say, when a leader is being detested by all his people.
He failed like, thoroughly.
Ok. I'm far too serious about it.
But it's totally maddening.
Oh well. Million thanks to the other prefect.
Because eventually I got my wallet back.

bhb

2007-07-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

" I'm going to shower then head over to find you but before that, you must gen wo gao bai again. Come "

Special is so special.

s.h.e

2007-07-29T20:54:00.000+08:00

HEBE: 我還以為是＊態度＊
ELLA:韓詠瑄

WHY DIDN'T I TELL THEM THAT IT'S MY BIG NAME?
* GRRRR *
I was so nervous and yar, STUPID.
hor hor hor?

Special is so nice. She came to IMM to look for me. [:
Because she thought I was pissed. LOL.
Appreciate that, love.
Had so much fun.
AND PAIN.
RARR

Today's moon is a wow.

哇！好可愛啊！

******************************
THIS IS A PRIVATE JOKE.
******************************
Sigh, everything ahead is so gonecase.
My future is, bleak.
What should I do.

I know I'm not pretty.
Far away from it.
Far away from being cute.
Unlike special.
Sigh.
That's why nobody wants me.

I'm so depressed.
Because I'm so stupid.
I kept flunking maths.
I know I could have done better.
I know.

I'm so short.
So fat.
I love netball and I sucked at it.
I don't know how to do perfect runs.
I can't shoot.
I want to improve.
Because I love playing it.

I don't want to be depressed.
I want to be happy.
Cheers, everyone.
I love you people.
If I die of sadness or got knocked down by the car accidentally outside my school.
Please attend my funeral ok?

******************************

LOVE. PEACE. JOY.

s.h.e is love

2007-07-29T07:54:00.000+08:00

Butt ached from sitting too long.
Shoulders ached for carrying heavy bags.

Enjoyed, had fun.
Pissed too.

S.H.E is love.

no life my life

2007-07-27T19:33:00.000+08:00

No life ar no life.
I spent my FRIDAY afternoon sleeping.
GOD.
NO LIFE, MY LIFE.

I wanna go out!
Yesss. It's me talking.
Me as in still in bed, with my blanket covering from my waist below.
And ruffled,just-got-up hair.
I wanna go out.
Staying at home for too long makes me lethargic and glum.
I wanna go outtttttttttt.

# EDITED
and why did my babiiemonsterr became a monster?
It's supposed to be a white Grundo!!
OK! Now I know why my babiiemonsterr became so mutated.
It's being transformed or painted, BABY.
I don't know how. I didn't have paintbrushes.
it's probably some food or toys.
* GRRR * They didn't even ask if I want him to be a BABY.
Now. It's truly a BABY MONSTER lar!
He lives up to his name man! LOL

Phew. Relieved.
But yet again, is it really that vulnerable?
It might be words lost somewhere in the middle.
It might be misconceptions.
It might be anything else.
I don't know.
I missed those days.
Really.

Probably made me tear a little.

lucky me.

2007-07-27T15:36:00.001+08:00

Today's my luckiest day.

Firstly, I was almost late for school.
Everyone waited for us to run in to assemble.
And while crossing that road, I almost got knocked down by cars.
READ. CARS!

And then I think I screwed up my tests.

Got selected to present something during chinese lessons.
I dread presentations.
I didn't even know the teacher knows my BIG name.

Lastly, my precious watch dropped on the road resulting it to be disfigured.
Heartache. I felt the pain.
My hearrrrt is bleeding. PROFUSELY.
IT IS THE HEBE-WATCH!!!!!!

And after all these disastrous disasters, I'm still alive. ( Thank God! )
Seeeeee. I told you I'm lucky.
Today's my luckiest day!

Can totally forsee coach bursting into her giggling fits like she laughed at my previous post.
GOD GOD GOD

physics, my inspirations

2007-07-26T20:02:00.000+08:00

While I was studying for the Physics test tomorrow.
I had inspirations.
I have to write!

When I left you, it's like a magnet leaving a solenoid.
You opposed my motion.
I simply had to go back to your side.

WAHAHAHAHAHA.
I am so goddamn funny right? YES.
WAHAHAHAH

AND AND AND.
Liying made a rap today.

* Sing according to My hump's melody *

My view, my view, my view, my view.
My neutral point of view.
My biased point of view.

* Switch to Tokyo Drift *
CHECK IT OUT. YO!

Social Studies workshop made us do that!
CAN I HAVE REFUND?
Or I don't want any refund, just let me go home early on thursdayyyyyy

ok. she was hilarious.

[:

2007-07-26T18:57:00.001+08:00

special dropped her 50 bucks. FAINTS.
She said she didn't intend to tell me but she's looking so frantic. ( LIKE AN ANT, as she said )
So yeah. She said she dropped 50 bucks like not feeling the pinch at all.
Felt the heartache for her. RARR. F I F T Y B U C K S
She can eat so much things with that!!!!!
LOL.
And then she was so mean........
Pretended she refuse to lunch with me.
Sms-ed me when I was in class saying that she'd left school ask me to enjoy.
That was when ms r*etha made us sing Que Sara Sara with all the key words inside.
Bloody hell. It made me feel as if I'm like 4.
How young. So yes. I was a little pissed.
Then I was quite speechless and said yeah.
Didn't really expect that she'll ever reply.
But she did. TO TELL ME SHE WAS JOKING. RARR RARR RARR.

Anyway, we jinxed again.
And then so much classic moves today.
TSK. Frantic expression#2 at KFC when I was telling her a story.
Apparently I didn't finish the story because we proceeded on with the laughter and forgot about the story.
YES. She's senile. Tsk. I'm young and fit, however with a little short term memory.

YES YES YES. On the bus. When we're reaching my house.
She suddenly grabbed my arm and refused to let go.
I didn't know why.
So I didn't do anything about it.
AND I RECALLED....
She said something about accompanying her home and I refused.
And she said she'll grab me so i can't run away.
RARR. And I realised she was doing thatttttt !!!!!
I struggled, she let go. BECAUSE SHE WANNA SAVE HER POPCORN.
And then she pulled my bag and my shirt.
I was so THROW FACE TRHOW FACE THROW FACE.
And then, I alighted, safely.
To my horror, astonishment, surprise whatsoever.
I saw my aunt. so she was on the same bus as me all along.
She didn't see meeeee.
So stressed up, she had pimples outbreak because she's studying for her test.
I am feeling guilty.

I was so happy when I was in the school's toilet just now.
They have sanitary pad dispenser!!!!
WHEEEEE~~~
Silvia thought sanitary pad dispenser is the bin.
LOL. And she laughed at me!! I laughed backkkkkk.

TOMORROW'S FRIDAYYYYY.
ZARAAAAAAA!!
Saturday's S.H.E
Sunday's S.H.E
WHEEEEE

Special. YES. You're cute too todayyyyyyy.

oops

2007-07-25T20:03:00.000+08:00

OH YES.
I FORGOT.
cmama stepped on her earpiece. Which she thought was a peanut.
LOL
and it broke. It ws uber funny.
She was so cute todayyy. HAHAHA

I want colourful and cute plasterssss

town trip

2007-07-25T18:47:00.000+08:00

I went town just now.
Didn't spend money at all. WAHAHAHAHA.
Skipped physics because I've attended the lessons already.
So, yeahs. It's with permission.
Waited for cmama and went town in search of her secondary school friend's present.
Bought a pendant. PRETTY PENDANT.
She was so so so bloody highhhh.
Prentended to be da dshe dtou from wisma all the way to centre point.
Gosh.
But eventually bought the present at PS.
FAINTS.
LOL.
And then I went home. while she went back to PS to buy her pork rib.
SHE ALWAYS REFUSE TO LET ME EAT. * food food food food food *

I fell asleep on the bus and ALMOST fell off my seat.
OK. Actually not almost exactly.
Not very near to falling.
So I woke up in shock, trying to save myself.
And I found that guy in front of me staring at me.
I checked my skirts. Just in case I zao geng or something.
But I didn't. Am pretty sure.
So then, I fell asleep again.
RARRRR.
And I caught him staring again.
Did I drool or what huh huh huh?!
OMG. I kept thinking back.
But I didn't!! Why was he staring man...

I AM HUNGRYYYYY

Oh yes. There is a cut on my middle finger.
I don't know why.
I just felt a sharp pain and next thing I knew was that it's bleeding.
Not profusely but it's still bleeding.
RARR RARR RARR. I don't remember being cut by anything.
How did it happen man??

jennifer o connell

2007-07-24T21:51:00.000+08:00

"I'll call you later. I love you," I added out of habit.
"Love you too," you automatically answered back.

I knew I love you all the while. I thought you loved me too. Althought I wanted to tell you. I didn't. Not right away. I saved up that word like a child saves pennies. hoarding them until their purchasing power takes on mythical proportions. The word love had value to us back then, like currency you save up greedily and handed over only when you knew that what you were getting in return was worth it. When I finally told you and you said it back, I felt like I'd won the lottery.
As time goes by, our currency had became devalued as we started to hand out I love you like tips, carelessly tossing them at each other because we knew it was expected. Our loving declarations had followed economic principles until supply seemingly overtook demand simply because the word was too plentiful. Until we'd forgotten that telling each other I love you has ever had value and the meaning had become devalued, gone the way of the Russian Ruble.

Bachelorette #1

[:

2007-07-24T19:35:00.000+08:00

I just had a hot shower.
I stayed in the shower for like half an hour.
Because it's so freaking cold and the shower was really awesome.
Made me feel so relaxed and soothed.
Probably it was the spa body shampoo.
I don't know.

I was on the phone with special and accompanied special home.
She's bored. And she made me blog.
Like she always did when she's bored.
And I'm always so nice so she'll be entertained.
Even though her english is 357808642 times better than mine.
I still need dictionary.com for help. ]:

Went all the way to causeway point.
Despite the fact that special lived at the other end of Singapore.
Rarrrr. That's uber nice.
Although she was a little reluctant at first because it's really so farrr.
I can understand. * nods * REALLY.

I saw my aunt and her Romanian boyfriend.
Actually husband. Since they're engaged.
So shuai!!! Right, special?
My dad is so mean to say he looks like bangla.
And he kept saying he's more shuai.
Yes. DADDY you're the shuai-er. since he didn't buy anything for me.
HAAA. LOVES. Call me realistic. I DON'T GIVE A DAMN.

We went to the library to * muahahhahahhahaha *
ok. READ. DUH. Well. NO. Didn't read.
Gossiped and had some PUBLIC DISPLAY OF AFFECTION.
MUAHAHHAHAHA.
ok. another personal joke.

She told me about her dream last night.
About striking lottery. OK. NOT. It's toto. LOL.
She said she dreamt that she won 300k. LOL.
She really bought toto and was anxious to see if she'd struck the lottery.
" I'll treat you to a feast and then vanish"
That's what she said about striking the lottery.
I was like. DUH?! I don't like to eat.
So she said she'd buy me a psp, pretty reluctantly.

MUAHAHA
* I WISH AR! *
Like she really struck the lottery.
So yes....
Everything was simply a fantasy of mine. LOL

Anyway. we JINXED!
Did exactly the same thing at the same time.
Then laughed.
LOL. JINXED JINXED JINXED
It's uber coool. I seldom jinx with anyone.

Anyway, after today's lessons I still hate relative velocity, unfortunately.
It is so hard to understand.
It is making me feel indignant.
Rarrrr. I know Mathematics is never my forte.
But at least in the past I know what Mrs Chan was talking about.
I'm catching no ball now.
SO DEAD.
i and j are much better though.

And now I'm so troubled.
I thought I could write 10 paragraphs easily.
But now I'm thinking otherwise.
Hardly imagine how Xiaxue writes so fluently, beautifully, profoundly and lengthy.
LOL. I LOVE XIAXUE..
LOVES SPECIAL MORE.
and love everyone else.

loves laine

2007-07-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

I love keep-me-sane friend!!
She really cheered me up. Like TOTALLY.

Keep-me-sane friend says: (9:30:32 PM)
wahlao,i think i'll just drive but never fly an airplane or sail a boat

Keep-me-sane friend says: (9:31:19 PM)
we shall go find rich boyfriends who own sailboats and airplanes and bring us around the world!

ME says: (9:31:39 PM)
uh yes. duhs. provided that i can be the captain. but i'm skipping the calculations part.

Keep-me-sane friend says: (9:32:11 PM)
just tell him where you can go and nah the map

Me says: (9:32:36 PM)
YES!! ur so humorous goddd

Keep-me-sane friend says: (9:33:39 PM)
no lah,i'm very fedup with relative, i think it will just mess up my image of maths

Me says:(9:33:53 PM)
lol. it alrdy has la

Keep-me-sane friend says: (9:38:20 PM)
algebra and calculus is so much better

Me says: (9:38:30 PM)
algeBRA rockks

Keep-me-sane friend says: (9:39:11 PM)
oh yes relative should be only for those who have boats to sail and airplanes to fly to learn

Keep-me-sane friend says: (9:39:24 PM)
not like us poor people who can't afford

UH UH UH. ALL OF US HATE RELATIVE VELOCITY. ( other than Brendakkk )
JOY TO THE WHOLE WORLD.
WE HATE RELATIVE VELOCITYYYY.

dumb

2007-07-23T19:32:00.000+08:00

BIG FUCK TO YOU(ME)
YOU'RE(ME) SUCHA BIG MORON.
WHEN WILL YOU(ME) EVER LEARN?

SERVES YOU(ME) RIGHT FOR PUKING TO DEATH LAR

My mind is in a whirl.
I don't know what exactly is on my mind.
I don't want anything to change.
I don't want to be left alone.
All by myself.
I'm afraid.
To be.
Rejected.

sis

2007-07-22T20:48:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I'm jealous.
Whenever my sister's msn alert is so consistent.
Sometimes I'm jealous.
Whenever my sister's phone ring every single minute.
Sometimes I'm jealous.
Whenever my sister can present herself so confidently in front of a huge crowd.
Sometimes I'm jealous.
Whenever my sister is capable of being herself at all circumstances.
Sometimes I'm jealous.
Whenever my sister forget everything and hold no grudges.
Sometimes I'm jealous.
Whenever my sister can do whatever I can't.

你愛我嗎
一直想問你這句話
卻又怕
聽到你真實的回答
My sister loves this song.
And I find it meaningful.
She can sing.
I'm going to make her join next CSS.
Even though I really put her down in the past.

Contact lens can do wonder.
She's tranformed from a nerd to a quite-a-gorgeous.
If her attitude is better.
I bet I'll love her more.

rarr

2007-07-22T20:20:00.000+08:00

Today was the worst day I went through hell.

I didn't bring Chem TYS home...
I didn't have the Maths ws...
My slippers gave way...
I can go and die...

china fren

2007-07-22T13:20:00.001+08:00

Someone is complaining that I didn't blog about her.
Tsk.
She's an overgrown sec 4 kid from China.
And she rockssss.
[:
Although she keeps ignoring meeeeeeee.

Note to self: please remember 30th July. If you( ME ) still want to live.

3 meals a day.

2007-07-21T20:29:00.000+08:00

I can't believe I ate all my three meals today.
And I ate out all day.
Die. It's so so so fatteningggg.
Mac breakfast. [:
THe first time I ate sausage mcmuffin.
Muahahahahha. I hated the egg. But I think it goes well with tons of pepper.
And then lunch is Japanese BENTO!!!! WHEEE~~
Dinner is PIZZA HUT DELIVERY. [:
courtesy of my daddyyyy. What's the occasion man?
I ate PIZZA for lunch yesterday toooo. courtesy of special who's ignoring me nowwww.
RARR. LOL.
In addition of all the food.
I ate a fried banana toooo.
OMGOMGOMG. I shouldn't crave for more food. I ought to stop.

rarr

2007-07-20T23:30:00.000+08:00

I am supposed to ENTERTAIN someone.
Called and pei-ed someone.
At least until my mum gets pms.
and someone is making me blog because someone says someone's bored.
Muahahahhahaaa.
Arr, sad thing is that I'm too nice to reject anyone. [:
So I'd blog.
I'll entertain speciallllll, as long as you're bored.
LOVES.

Today's RACIAL HARMONY.
wheeee~~ So almost the whole class wore ethnic costume.
Only 10 didn't wear.
LOL. It's so fun though.
Taking pictures.
Ok. Sad thing is that we've left with so little time to be together.
I will really miss each and every sponges.
Even those 'prodigies'.
Yesssssss.
Little Miss Stubborn attracted Cha cha!!
* RARRRS *
But Cha cha is so cute.

I have a little sister who's driving me crazy.
I have a cousin who's crazy.
He said he want bring us to kbox.
And then, asked like 295349004 questions about kbox in Singapore.
I didn't answer.
Pushed all of the answering part to my little sister who drove me crazy.
Oh yes. She's hopelesss.
RARRR.

And and and.
I want HL.
* randoms *
But I really want HL.
HL HL HL HL HL HL.

AND. IS ANYONE FREE TO GO OUT WITH ME TOMORROW? [:

p.s: I think stealing is COOL.
p.ss: Not that I have ever stolen anything..

p.sss: NIGHTSSSSS. SWEETEST DREAMS, * dream of me *

p.ssss: ok. I'M JOKING.

maroon 5

2007-07-20T21:16:00.001+08:00

Nothing Lasts Forever...

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep
[Nothing Lasts Forever lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

hmm

2007-07-19T06:00:00.000+08:00

I had a dream. A bad dream.
I woke up, in tears.
She left, without a sign.
I came online, immediately.
Read her blog.
It's not exactly a dream, I realised.
I was insane, to say that.
I'd learn to shut up. Forever, if you'd want me to.
Loves.

yes

2007-07-18T22:25:00.001+08:00

Shocked.

Dell Inspiron 1420.
RED.
I am not asking for comments.

Nights, and loves.

XIAXUE ROCKS

2007-07-18T19:59:00.000+08:00

Personally, I feel that Xiaxue is indeed the blogger queen.
She's really good at writing, let it be any topics. She's still as good as ever.
Even her latest post about the disgusting bloggers she thought.
It was hilarious.
Damn funny.
And I really think that Steven Lim is DISGUSTING.
SUPER DISGUSTING.
His blog is like 219349572 times more turn-off than those who TyypE LiIkE tIiSh. ( ok. I used to type like this, but I've CHANGED, inside out. )
So just as the whole wide world have expected, he retaliated.
However, via a video clip, I didn't think of that......
It is so gross. I didn't learn enough vocabulary to describe GROSS. rarrr
But come to think of that, that is the only way he can reply to Xiaxue's condemn to be one of the disgusting blogger BECAUSE HIS BLOG ENTRIES WERE LOUSY.
His spoken english is as bad.
But it's like what the hell?!
He kept going round and round and round on the same thing again and again.
Tsk. He ran out of things to say yet refuse to waste his precious cd?
LOL. and he even spoke in mandarin, saying Xiaxue 'eats potato'.
But I thought Xiaxue speaks mandarin tooooo.
Oh well. I think that he sucks at both MANDARIN and ENGLISH.
Because he has da dshe dtou.
Muahahahahaaa. Oh yes.
I can feel his saliva spitting right on my face when I watched the video.
* wipes * RARRR.
He tried so hard, to insult Xiaxue.
Saying that she's a reject in Singapore and how she is a dust without her plastic nose.
I wanna laugh.
So what is he man?
Rejected by a REJECT?!
LOL. WORSE STILL. At least Xiaxue has a pretty nose even though it's plastic but it's now on her face.
That makes it HER NOSE.
He doesn't have one nice thing on his face.
I seriously think he's got a pervert look on his face, whether he's being earnest, or not.
He is INSANE.
AND he is so childish...
"Dun no where Xia Xue got the info that I was paid only $20 for the Girls out Loud match making TV thingy with her... I was in fact paid $50 just to pretend to be her admirer for a while"
What is the DIFFERENCE?!?!?!?!?!
He's so funny, always trying to get famous by embarrassing himself.
Apparently, his skin is too thick to be embarrassed.
XIAXUE ROCKS for not replying.
I bet Steven Lim thought Xiaxue would be so pissed that she will update another long entry to reply to his childish act.
But no. Xiaxue is cool enough to just WRITE A LINE.
So probably Steven Lim is jumping up and down with smoke coming out of his ears.
And typing an entry furiously to discriminate THE BLOGGER QUEEN.
Or maybe, another video.
Tsk. Poor guy.

I wanted to leave a comment on his blog, but to my surprise, he has no guestbook!
Like omg. which 'star' blogger has no guestbook.
Even though he left his number on his blog.
How desperate one can get huhhs?

And I'm s'posed to blog about DWBD. [:
Haaaa. it's a personal joke.
Oh well. She made me not to talk for 5 mins.
AND THEN SHE COULDN'T STAND IT WHEN I DID NOT TALK.
She forced me to talk eventually.
well. NO. pleaded me.
Muahahahahahaaaa.
Oh yes. Oh yes.
She always pretends that she has da dshe dtou.

fairytales

2007-07-17T21:38:00.001+08:00

Prince and princess are fairytales.
Reality is when, I'm not a princess and you're not a prince.
Yet we still live happily ever after.

SOTM.

i dunno.

2007-07-17T19:43:00.000+08:00

When something becomes nothing.
I love this phrase.
I will sing in the darkness and laugh in the rain.
This too.

She claims that she know me.
But I have no idea who is she..
Who is that person mannnn.

I hate relative velocity.

gasps

2007-07-15T15:13:00.000+08:00

Gasps for air.

I was unable to see clearly of what's ahead.
Or what was lying beneath.
Neither did I realise the ambush around me.
They launched the attack when I was the least prepared.
Everyone, all at once.
I didn't know that I was so vulnerable till I couldn't get back onto my feet upon all the setbacks.
I refused to admit, but I was puny all along.
I was in pain, I was all hurt.
Lying helplessly in the dark deep pit waiting for angels or a nice soul, at least, to rescue me.
None did.
Instead, they hurled stones and pebbles into the pit thus hitting me.
They hit my head, my face, my limbs and my heart.
I broke down because I was feeling pity for myself.
That was a worse mistake that I've ever made.
Because when they throw the stones and pebbles into the dark pit with all their might and strength, that was what they wanted to see.
Me, breaking down and being devastated.
But no. I am doing it no more.
I stood up, with all the energy that was not drained out while I sobbed.
I looked up, with the eyes which were unable to see what had been going on.
I climbed up, with the limbs that are covered with tears and blood.
And then, I am alive again.
And then, they're disappointed again.

dont wanna know

2007-07-15T00:07:00.000+08:00

我變了
我變得堅強了
我變得勇敢了
我變得害怕了
我變得沉默了
我變得愛瞎操心了

我懂了
我懂得體諒了
我懂得獨立了
我懂得不說了
我懂得接受了
我懂得漸漸放手了

我懂我變了

neopets rocks.

2007-07-14T21:28:00.000+08:00

I love NEOPETS.
Because there's always neopets whenever everyone ignores me.
EVERY SINGLE ONE.
And neopets will say things like, YOU'RE THE BEST OWNER EVER.
Things that no one will ever say to me.
Cyber is an escapade.

Gastric is my best friend.
But it hurts me so much that I wanna puke.
Stop, please stop.

think vs miss

2007-07-14T13:44:00.001+08:00

I know the phone is not controlled by my eyeballs.
But I couldn't help to stare at the phone to see if you'd text or call me.
Or probably at the MSN window to see if you're online.

-----------------------------

To miss is to think of you irrationally.
To think is to miss you rationally.

dsd

2007-07-14T11:48:00.000+08:00

DIM SUM DOLLIES WERE FANTASTIC LAST NIGHT.
The songs were marvellous.
And the performance. * 7 thumbs up * [:
It was so so so good and Hossan Leong was so cute.
He looks like Peter Pan!
Thanks DWBD.

Not obligated.
Thus, I should not expect anymore.
Because I don't want you to expect anymore from me either.

I've decided.
To go for the matinee and forsake S.H.E
This will be the biggest sacrifice I've ever done for the school.

I kept saying the wrong things at the wrong time.
So fed up.
So I shut up.
So I shut up.
So I'd shut up.
So I'll shut up.
Rarrr. How to??

rantings.

2007-07-13T15:12:00.000+08:00

I'm having this love-hate relationship with the Toh Tuck Campus.
I love it because it's super old.
So vintage that I can't resist loving it.
Love it because I get to walk a long way to school and it's uphill somemore.
I get to exercise this way.

Hate it because too many rich people there.
The snobbish rich people.
Raging.
Like today.
At the zebra crossing, it only make sense if the car stops when the driver see people waiting to cross the road.
So the WHOLE LOAD of us crossed the road today and a car just kept on driving.
And finally stopped right in front of the zebra crossing.
So near so near that it almost hit one of the people crossing the road.
A lady who's around 60 years old.
From her attire and her car. You can tell that she's filthy rich straightaway.
So she was looking cross in the car and started babbling things.
I swear that she's swearing and cursing in the car.
RARRRR.
What is wrong? She was at fault!
That was a zebra crossinggggg. We're not jaywalking!

And then. I kinda assumed that DWBD treat me DIE HARD 4.0.
I'M DEAD.

sorry

2007-07-12T21:59:00.000+08:00

I broke the momentum...
Because I thought it might be what you're implying.
I was just trying to make you happy.
Trying my very best.

how?

2007-07-12T18:46:00.001+08:00

My coughs had evolved to some sneezing-like thing.
So is that a cough or a sneeze?
HOW? GOD!

[:

2007-07-12T18:08:00.000+08:00

I tear-er twice. Because I couldn't stop coughing.
It's like * RARRR * a torment!!
I wish I may...
I don't want to be thrown out of the theatre tomorrow.
And I have tons of incomplete assignments.
They're like, god?, heaps of them.
Pile up like mountain. OK. Probably not.
Just some chinese assignment which made ShiXu threw temper.

Okokokok. Something I really have to blog about.
I saw bng at the bus stop just now.
So I turning about at the bus stop and I saw him.
Sms-ing and smiling at his handphone.
Then I was like OH MY TIAN!!
SO THIS IS HOW RIDICULOUS I'D LOOKED WHEN I SMILED AT THE PHONE!
However, DWBD will rather refer it as GOOD THING.
OK. So basically, GOOD THINGS often happened to me and made me look ridiculous.
RARRRR.
Despite the fact that my sisters always tell me about I kept smiling at the computer screen and handphone screen and told me I looked STUPID.
LOL!
But I couldn't control...
I tried to resist but I still smiled at the screen.

DWBD says she's powerful.

I'm watching an old show on channel 8.
And there's this coward.
Rarrr! He's so irritating. Henpecked and yet controlled by his father.
Stupid. I DON'T WANT THIS KINDA BOYFRIEND. * turns off*
ZOE TAY SAYS WALAU EHS.
So cuteeeee.
Haaaa!

And I really wanna watch Hooked on You.

DWBD loves to play hide and seek nowadays.

it's a sad thing.

2007-07-12T05:59:00.000+08:00

I don't know why.
Being neglected, rejected.
Ignored too.
What did I do?
Or, what did I not do?
The truth is I'm afraid, to lose and be alone again.
The truth is I'm too reliant.
The truth is, the truth, the reality.

I know, I'm too much a trouble.
I know, I'm too hard to handle.
Is that why?
I'll learn to change.

major headache, and it's killing me.

new watchhh

2007-07-11T18:39:00.000+08:00

DADDY BOUGHT ME A NEW WATCH.
Muahahahhaaaaaaa~~

I was so scared when I asked my daddy if I can buy a watch.
Then he asked what I wanna buy.
I said Baby G.
LOL.
Then he said he's now working on a project for Baby G headquarter so asked me for the model.

WHEEEE~~
And I've got it!! [:
Overjoyed.

Hebe's watch.

sick

2007-07-11T17:39:00.000+08:00

I'm seriously down with flu. ]:
My voice is gone....
But it's so sexy now. MUAHAHAHHAAAAA.
* coughs coughs *

I was so sleepy in class that I nearly dozed off like 34508603 times in Quek's lessons.
RARR. Then I failed my physics test.
Magnet doesn't attract me.
PLEASE. MAGNETISE ME!!!! So I can get attracted. Gosh.
No more failing you you you * points at myself *

I wants songs.

I miss love.

DWBD is indeed a WBD

2007-07-09T21:47:00.000+08:00

DWBD not going for DSD anymore. ]:
Sh'es going for training instead.
Then what's the point?
I want her to go, since she was the one who asked me to go with her.
And I know how much she'd been looking forward to this friday.
And it's my fault.
Because I said I wanted that day.
Friday 13th again.
Me, being skeptical and all, feels that something's gonna happen that day.

And you left me with him, when I don't even know if he wants to go with me. ]:

DWBD is more gorgeous than me and I can't live without her, because she's the only one who can make me laugh.

fuck

2007-07-08T22:00:00.001+08:00

My back, is aching badly.
My head, is splitting.
My brain, is frying.
I can't think, my aplogies.

But I can't believe that you ignored me the entire day to play game. OMT!

[:

2007-07-08T20:52:00.001+08:00

Back from hiatus. * i used this word [: *
I need to blog, I have to blog. If not thousands of people will die of boredom.
OK. Not true. Truth is, I'll die of boredom.
I'm having fever and everyone is ignoring me lar.
Like flu can be spread via MSN!!!!!
#@%$%^%^&&( * grrrrrr *
I went to Hougang again yesterday.
Nearly died, because my heart jumped out of my mouth.

Look at this!
Netball- $20.
Netball with Qingyi's signature- Priceless.
LOL!
I was so bloody nervous.
She went to the toilet with almost the whole team.
Then we saw that everyone's out except for her, so we went outside to catch her.
LOL.
Then finally she came.
I just jumped right in front of her with my marker and that ball.
So she talked to me.
I didn't know how to reply.
RARR RARR.
Regrettttts. I should've talked!!!!
And then and then and then. I forgot to wish her good luck.
BANGS WALL AND GO TO HELL LAR, VANESSA....
LOL
OKOKOK.
I shall stop being obsessed with her.
Errr, give me a few years k? [:

Oh yes. Not to mention, DWBD is truly a flasher.
tsk. I was so tempted to blog few days back.
I have to tell the whole world.
SHE'S A FLASHER AND MOLESTER WITH SPLIT PERSONALITY.
And then, she'll come and say she touched my boobs. FAINTS.
LOL. I dun care ar! [:

I wanna go see doc.
I'm dying of headache and blocked nose. *gasps* I can't breath............
Well, before I die I have to make sure everyone is as sick as me.
Loves. Kisses. Hugs.
All with flu virus and germs. Muahahahhahaha

p.s: I SWEAR, FLU CANT SPREAD VIA MSN. PLEASE TALK TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. ANYONE!

last published post.

2007-07-03T19:59:00.000+08:00

Losing, quitting, stopping.

* poof * vanished and now gone, forever.

Goodbye.

mikaela

2007-07-02T21:47:00.000+08:00

Shannon said I look like Mikaela.
ie, Megan Fox.
He really made me laugh after a few hours of frowning.
Thanks, but I really do not resemble her a teeny weeny bit.
I love Mikaela.

I'm back to the square one.
2nd night without dinner.
I'm gonna make it through.

jiemei.

2007-07-02T20:54:00.000+08:00

Today is, unexpected.

I'm in bad mood.
AGAIN.
Then Jingda sms-ed.
Asked if I could call Jiahui.
Because he was thinking that there's something wrong with her.
So I called.
Rang for quite a while because she didn't answer.
So I got a little worried.
Then finally, she picked up the phone.

She said she's at CSS, watching her Fukuan or whoever that is.
So I nearly fainted.
Then I was like, Jingda thought you committed suicide or something.
Then she said.
Don't tell Jingda. Just say I'm trying to kill myself.

I beg to differ, I'd rather be the one ending up to be hurt.

whyyy?

2007-07-01T23:14:00.001+08:00

Why did you do that?
Why why why why why why ????
Why did you do that ???
I'm feeling bloody hurt, you made me feel like a slut.
I bet everyone's thinking that I'm a total bitch.
God.
I'm so unhappy right now.
Thanks.

ring.

2007-07-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

I want a ring.
A ring. A ring. A ring.

Told DWBD something today that I've told no one before.
She said I lied to her. Puhlease lar !
I didn't lie, I just hid the fact.
Anyway, I didn't expect to be super lady like today.
So I was casual again.
Then she came, super lady.
I nearly fainted, because I was expecting her to be in slippers and spags and hot pants.
LOL.
But she didn't larrrr !
So I was bloody under-dressed.
I wanna change my wardrobe, as in the clothes in my wardrobe....

Transformers wasn't as good as I've expected.
Although I love Megan Fox.
She's totally gorgeous.
The Transformer evolved to be like power ranger and ultraman at the end.
So dumb.
But yeahs, I was still fine with it.

I'm quite disappointed.
I'm quite confused.
I cannot see the which is the truth.
I don't know, I really don't know.
I didn't expect that, at all.
I don't want to know anymore.

[:

2007-07-01T02:11:00.001+08:00

BOYFRIEND!!!!!

life can be wonderful [:

2007-07-01T00:35:00.000+08:00

Today is not a typical day that I usually have.
Went all the way to Hougang to watch a match with DWBD.
And then, I saw Liling waiting at the roadside.
So DWBD just went over to say hi and blarh blarh blarh.
Then Liling said something like take Mickey's car there too.
THEN I WAS LIKE PETRIFIED, TERRIFIED, HORRIFIED.
* TAKE WHOSE CAR? MICKEY'S? *
I was hiding behind DWBD begging her to let me take cab.
God, so we took a ride on Mickey's car, eventually.
ARHH.
Throughout the whole journey, I was staring out of the window.
Because I wasn't too sure where to look at. Haaaa !
Then when we reached the venue.....
Mickey said something like, you have to pull twice ( to open the door.... )
And I was like so 'telefied' already, blank-ing all the while thus paying no attention to what she said.
I was so shocked, cos I couldn't open the door.
So Mickey was like, pull twice.
Then I pulled again. So embarrassing larr !!!!!
GOSH. I almost died in the car.
Still trembling when I got out of the car.
OMFG. I was super lousy.
So watched the match, they're super zai. Nice game.
There's Lix, Premila, Vanessa, Mickey, Liling, Huifen, Jean Ng and Pearline.
So WOW lar !
Then after a while, the Sneakers came, so there's TingJun.
Met so much ou xiangs. haaaa.
Ok. So DWBD kept harping on the part when I didn't thank her cos she's helping me.
I was in the dilemma, to thank her or not.
True, which fan can take Mickey's car? LOL.
BUT !!! I nearly died of heart attack can ????
WHOA. BUT it's like some super special experience.
Love them.

EDITED
Oh yes, I molested people, but she revenged. I molested her on the escalator, zai bah ? WAHAHAHAH * winks *

insults.

2007-06-28T22:57:00.000+08:00

Even if I know you're teasing me, entertaining me.
I still felt the urge to cry.
Quite hurt, by the truth.

>.<

2007-06-28T22:28:00.000+08:00

Finally cut my hair.
Like finally.
DWBD went with me.
Had fun.

But I'm in terribly bad mood now.
I'm so worried.
I don't want to forget what I'd studied.
Now, I really feel the stress.
It's a torment.

I hope anne is not [: ...

no starting afresh

2007-06-27T20:45:00.001+08:00

What is done is done.
No use mulling over it.
Too late. There's no rewind or pause button.
Just get a life and move on please.

Stupid things, I've heard, seen and said too much.
I'm so sorry if I had spout nonsensical things to you.
If you think they are dumb. Ignore me.
I didn't mean to hurt anyone.
Perhaps, I was ignorant that I was being mean.
Apologies.
Loves.

whatever

2007-06-27T19:27:00.000+08:00

CLARIFICATIONS :
First of all, I'm definitely not jealous over whatever someone said about another girl.
Also, no one is my priority.
The entry wasn't for anyone. NONONO.
It's not dedicated. It's just a gentle reminder for everyone. Girls, guys whatever....
Just don't do stupid things that will ruin relationships.
Things like this can be avoided.

To [:......
You claimed that you read all my entries.
I was doubtful about that. All 500 entries?
You said I looked into things too deeply and sometimes they did not happen that way.
What made you so sure?
Those, happened to me. You weren't around.
Are you sure you're not being biased.
And certainly, all my entries were being biased because those were my point of view.
I wasn't trying to be any saint and being so neutral. NO !
Of course not.
This blog, is to show what I thought and felt about my life.
So yes, those were what I felt that those moment.
Yes, when I looked back, I probably feel stupid or sometimes thought I was really naive to say those things.
Whatever it is, those were just what I felt.
Yes? Sometimes, it's not that I was looking too deeply into somethings. But most people only see the superficial and not deep into it.
I'm sorry if I sounded harsh, but yes, it's another 'my-point-of-view'.
And thanks for all the advices but I'm sure that I know what's going on.
I'm pretty sure of what I like and not like.
I'm not into the LOVE-RELATIONSHIP thing.
So, I'm sorry, but your assumption of me LOVING whoever-that-is is wrong.

Supposedly going to cut my hair with DWBD.
But the hairdresser was on leave, so didn't cut. >.<
Joey( Wong ) honey called so went town to search presents for my dearest Shao laogong. [:
It's my dearest laogong's birthday tomorrow. Wheeee~~
Happy 16th birthday, love.

So yes, was so high with DWBD. * SQUEEZES DWBD'S THROAT *
Haaaaaa !! Late again. >.<
I'm so sorry DWBD.

Sad thing, relationship at ths age never lasts.
ARR !
Someone was confiding to me about some problems.
I want them to last. Like I can make them last.
God ! Overlook minor fights, reminisce sweet memories.
OK. Yes, I only know how to say. Ha !

nice optical 88 at lot one

2007-06-26T19:38:00.001+08:00

Not everyone at op*ical 88 are mean.
Heee~
I've got my contact lens changed. Yays !
There's one nice soul at lot one.
* Praises *

DWBD made me feel so stupid !
Firstly she sent me an email.
WAHAHHAAHHAHA !
Fainted. LOL
Then I thought she was on a train.
And she said she's on the train to town.
So I was like ^&*&&*(*(##@. WHY ARE YOU ON THE TRAIN TO TOWN ?!
AREN'T YOU AT YOUR VOID DECK ALREADY ?!
AND DIDN'T YOU JUST PASSED BY TOWN ?!?!

Then I heard * HAHAHAHA ! WAHAHAHAHAH ! BWAHAHAHAHAHHA ! MUAHAHAHAHHAHA ! *
* I'm in the lift larrr ! *

FAINTS AGAIN LAR.

stupid guys

2007-06-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

Isn't it a little stupid to tell the person you like that you think this-whoever-it-may-be is so cool and pretty and you really admire her?
And then after that then insist that NO ! You do not like her.
Then tries to avoid and shuns the topic like it's the taboo.
Aren't you just making the other party more curious or sometimes, if that's the girlfriend, suspicious?

*Rolls eyes*

I will never tell the guy that I like about how cute and shuai Edison Chen is.
Never.
Even though it's the fact.
Then probably I will say something like, ' you're cuter because you have me by your side. '
LOL ! PUKES. Ok. I'm sorry, I just thought it might be funny.
Wahahahah. At least I thought it's funny. It's a kind of humour probably many do not understand. LOL.

optical 88 sucks

2007-06-25T20:10:00.000+08:00

I so hate Op*ical 88..
ARRRRGHHHS.
The opticians there promised that I can change my contact lens if my eyesight got worse.
So I agreed to buy the one and a half year supply.
So I went to change just now.
They say they don't my have my damn record so they can't change for me.
WHAT A LIAR !!
SHEEESH. SO GROSS.
I was so pissed that I nearly cried on the streets.
FREAK LAR. LIAR. LIAR LIAR LIAR LIAR.
I'm so going to lot one tomorrow. SO SUCKS.
THAT SHOP HAS NO INTEGRITY AT ALL.
IT DOESN'T DO ANYTHING THEY HAD PROMISED EARLIER.
THEY DID NOT STICK TO THE DEAL THEY OFFERED !
SO SUCKS LAR.
If they are not going to change for me, I'm not going to purchase any damn thing from the outlets.
NEVER.
SUCKS. I hate shops like that.

sheesh

2007-06-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

What the f*ck is wrong with me.
Why am I pissing everyone off.
Why?!
SHUCKS. Why am I even saying f*ck.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so hating myself.
Freak. SHEEEEESH.
I'm so sorry.

It's probably due to the redness.
I have erythrophobia.

sad

2007-06-24T16:36:00.000+08:00

I'm such a loser.
I'm an useless bum.
How could I let my tears fall so easily.
F*ck. That's so un-manly !!!!
Good thing is that nobody realised.
Because my face was already red.
Thank god.

carnival

2007-06-24T10:43:00.000+08:00

My face is bloody RED.
RED RED RED RED RED RED.
So burnt. I'm dead. When it's peeling I'll have a distorted face.
Ok. Like it's not distorted now.
I spent like 4 months to regained a little fairness.
But *tada* within 4 hours, I'm burnt AGAIN !

Carnival was fun. Nette played C. That was hilarious.
Tingjun went to umpire. I high-ed over that for a while.
Tingjun !!!!!! * lovesss *
We didn't even enter the 2nd round. But we did have fun.
Oh yes. There's this mean indian who accused Carryl of stealing her damn phone.
So stupid. I bet Carryl is like 103393459450 times richer than her.

And yeahhhs.
Signed up for the club selection.
Though I haven't decided if I wanna continue training.
Coach says this signing up activity is to secure you so that other clubs won't be able to get you into their clubs.
LOL.
Yes. Securing nette, shoa and joey was a right move. They don't have to secure me at all.
Because firstly, no other clubs will want me. and secondly, I may not even pass through the selections.
Yeahhs.

I had so much fun yesterday while playing.
Although some parts of the games were disappointment.
But the drive was there to run, to save and to play.

[:

2007-06-22T12:38:00.000+08:00

Loading the heavy burden off my shoulder.
Shaking the redundant worries off my mind.
Wiping the salty tears off my cheek.
Ripping the sweet memories off my diary.
Clearing the clothes you left off my wardrobe.
Striking the special dates off my calendar.
Removing the loving sms off my cellphone.
Sceaming the piercing pain off my heart.
Taking the silver ring off my ring finger.
Kicking the promise you made off my head.

Why is it so hard just to forget?.
I need to forget.
I don't want to live in the past, with you around when all of it was only part of my imaginations.

[:

2007-06-22T00:14:00.000+08:00

Was out with Angie and had dinner at Coffee Club. [:
I've not seen her for like almost a year. GOSH. it was really long ago.
She was so cute.
Told me I look like * ahem *
hahaha. yes. my ou xiang.
Then I was like. ok. ur not the first person who said that.
She said something like. Really look alike from certain angle.
So again. In the dilemma of being happy or sad.
LOL. I really love * ahem *.
Then her friend came. They went shopping to get things for some colleague who s leaving.
So yeah, I tagged along like a lil kid.
She called me xiao hai zi too. god.
Like DWBD.
At Robinson she exclaimed again.
OH YES ! THIS ANGLE. HAO XIANG HAO XIANG.
Her friend was a little shocked. Not sure of what she's talking and high-ing about.
So she explained...
Just walked and hang around. Till all the shops closed. [:
It was fun. [:

Bloody.
my sis kept stealing the laptop and use without my darn permission.
again and again.
I told her. warned her.
if she still refuse to listen, I'll bring it to school every single day.

[:

2007-06-21T13:52:00.000+08:00

BASED ON BEAUTY AND THE BEAST THEORY.
IT IS OBVIOUS THAT I WILL HAVE A GORGEOUS HUNK AS MY BOYFRIEND.
WHEEEE~~

do and donts

2007-06-21T13:35:00.000+08:00

I don't like it when people start calling me and ask what I'm doing.
I don't like it when people ask where I am.
I don't like it when people criticise the people or things I like.
I don't like it when people talk to me when I'm watching tv.
I don't like it when people talk as if they know they you feel but actually they're ignorant of it.
I don't like it when I have to persuade people to go out with me.
I don't like it when people persuade me that the things I dislike is nice.
I don't like it when people try to matchmake somebody I really detest.
I don't like it when people cry over teeny weeny things that you will not remember the next day.
I don't like it when people look at you pitifully when they were the one in wrong.
I don't like it when people assume things that were nonsense.
I don't like it when I've made things clear enough but the other party is still not getting the damn ball.

I like it when people aappreciate what I did.
I like it when people acknowledge my efforts.
I like it when I have a group of friends to go crazy with.
I like it when I'm around with people generally older than me.
I like it when you say words of encouragement when I'm down but not as if you know every single thing.
I like it when people give me constructive advices when I'm outside.
I like it when I'm low profile, yet attracts attention.

quiz

2007-06-20T19:03:00.000+08:00

Pardon. BUT I'M ROTTING.

Two Names You Go By:
1. Vanessa
2. HanYongXuan

2. Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. Kidznet banana shirt
2. contact lens

Two Things You Want in a Relationship:
1. communications
2. laughter

Two of Your Favorite Things to do:
1. oogling at babes
2. watch movies

Two Things You Want Very Badly At The Moment:
1. the mood to study
2. money. ever ending supply of it.

Two pets you had:
1. hamsters
2. some fish.

Two things you did last night:
1. talked to DWBD
2. Sleep.

Two things you ate today
1: Ba zhang !!
2. chicken cutlet.

Two people you Last Talked To (not including fam):
1. DWBD
2. Brendak

Two Things You're doing tomorrow:
1. Training.
2. Dinner with Angie !

Two favorite beverages:
1. COFFEE. KA FEI DOU please.
2. Ice lemon tea.

Two of your least favorite things to do:
1. Cold war.
2. Cry.

Love Survey You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY!!!

[01] where's your beloved one??
- I've got aot of beloved ones.

[02] Have you ever been given roses?
- no no no

[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
- I f I say Romeo and Juliet..

[04] How many times have you honestly been in love?
- HAHAHAHAHA

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
- yes.

[06] Do you think that you should put your friends first?
- they were always the priority. but now, it depends.

[07] Have you ever had your heart broken?
- HA. yes.

[8] Your thoughts on online relationships?
- crazy.

[9] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
- yes.

[10] Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater."?
- no.

[11] How many kids do you want to have?
- one or two [: princess and prince they will be. wahahaha !

[12] What is your favorite color(s)
- RED.

life

2007-06-20T18:09:00.000+08:00

It's another moment of self-doubt.
It's not as if it'd never happened before.
But why can't I just believe in myself?
Why can't I just be confident about everything I'm doing?
I have to. I have to learn.
It's definitely the minimum requirement for success, or rather, to be happy.

I managed to maintain a facade of strength and happiness.
All the while, I thought I will just continue this prententious act.
But no. I don't have to.
I'm kinda genuinely happy now.
It's clear, no more ambiguousity.
Although I'm still brooding on some stupid things over and over again.
They are redundant.
Just let it go. Let it be.
I shall not be naive and think positive. [:
Things will just get better, perhaps tomorrow.

Oh yes. I'm meeting Angie the babe tomorrow.
LIKE FINALLY !